This video helped out a lot. I see the enthusasm I had back then and compare it to what I have now and I see a big drop. Even though I’m being goofy and kinda derp, I see what people mean when they say “I want to see the old Ryan back.”
Slowly but surely I’m getting happier. I’m starting to re-realize why I joined Circle K in the first place. I think it all started at President’s Retreat. Even though I’ve been in this club since my freshman year at UCR, I saw a lot of “young blood” and I think it helped me find myself. But looking back at this…. I see a happier time in my Circle K life. I want to go back to this kind of Ryan one day at a time. Its not going to happen overnight, but I want this back. :)
No, I’m not saying I’m going to forget the battles I’ve been through. All I’m saying is that I need to have that spirit back, that happiness back, and ultimately that heart and soul back. I want to have it all back.